Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in Leo Darkside's LiveJournal:

Monday, December 14th, 2009
6:19 am	Dear whoever, I must begin by saying that I can no longer be an English major for the following reasons: a. My self-hatred has reached new and previously unheard of levels, and the only reason I don't seriously consider suicide as a viable option is my all consuming selfishness and laziness. b. I am fucking sick and tired talking about the same 5 "deep and meaningful" approaches to whatever books we're reading, which isn't surprising because -- c. teachers keep picking the same fucking books that are about as interesting and innovative as the paper they're printed on. d. Heart of Darkness -- it's a book about how a continent is so evil that it turns the natives into either "almost human" savages or weak, easily oppressed/bought off body parts, and turns anyone who dares come from the outside into evil bastards who then proceed to dominate and abuse the aforementioned natives; then cry about it and rationalize how being away from "civilization" made them do it. Also, Marlow needs to stop thinking about Kurtz and all that stuff they didn't get to do to each other...at night...alone...in the dark, sexy, forbidden jungle...yes, I'm saying everyone is gay. And racist. And Eurocentric. Also the women are silent, powerless symbolized and idealized Madonna/Devil types, broken down into images and body parts. Oh, and everything is mysterious and uncanny. I think this pretty much summarizes every criticism of HOD ever. Wait, no Freud! Done. Apocalypse Now is superior. My point -- this shit is boring and has been done to death; let’s read "Three Bags Full" instead. It's a book about smart sheep who try to solve their owner's murder. Most of the narrative is seen from the sheep's view, there are fun and relate-able characters, the mystery drives the action and it's just plain fun. Why can't we read something fun? I didn't realize they take away the right to enjoy reading the moment they hand you the diploma. Maybe I should have just caved in and been an art major? I mean, I'm good at the whole drawing thing, and art majors are supposed to be edgy and/or crazy, and that's totally something I can do. I mean, all I want to do in life is work as a secretary, maybe have some children and procure a pet cat from the shelter, preferably while also owning some sort of abode. It feels like my parents constantly fluctuate between either thinking the Earth spins because I exist, or crushing disappointment. I know I'm just throwing this in, but it's 6 am and I haven't slept in 16 hours, which isn't as bad as I initially thought. I officially feel better. Current Mood: awake Current Music: life is a highway...it's playing in my head (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 11th, 2007
11:47 am	I'm sick of my teachers treating us the students as if we were uneducated, bigoted, semi-retarded nimrods. Yes, there is a lot of stuff about history we don't know. Yes, there are a lot of stereotypes we may believe. And yes, we are ignorant. But we're 20 years old for God's sake! I mean, it's not like they teach you anything in high school. And I'm sorry, but not all of us are curious and spend days figuring out what effect any given event had on any given group of individuals or what every article in the Constitution has to say. Is that what they want from us, to say we're sorry for not being 110% involved in history and politics and the like? Will that make us human in their eyes? Well, in that case I'm SORRY! OK? I'm SORRY. Now can you stop talking to me like I'm retarded and can't tell my ass from my head? Please. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Supernews (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 10th, 2007
7:27 pm	Create your own visitor map! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
1:20 am	Not about a dancing monkey Heh. Well, I do not update this often, but why not? Ok, first of all, I finally updated my DeviantArt account. Yeah, I got so tired of Elfwood. It takes them about an eternity.5 to update my pics. I swear, it shouldn't take that long. So yeah, I gave up. I like my DeviantArt, but my lappy does not, so we had a little chat and I threatened to start treating him like I did my other lappies...and play endless hours of British cop dramas. He saw reason and gave in. My scanner on the other hand is not so reasonable. It is a devil machine that hates humanity and rapes my art. Sigh. I am seriously not too happy with the quality of the scans...but what are you gonna do? Well, I want to get a nicer scanner, but like that' gonna happen in the next 10 years. Please. The new semester begins soon and I'm gonna be taking art class. EW. Ok, just for the record, I have never received above a C in art class. The reason? I do not turn in my work because: a) I think it's a stupid project and I don't wanna do it, or b) I still think it's a stupid project, but I would have done it were I not instead watching porn/reading slash/drawing for my own amusement. So yeah. Still, I need the art credits, and there is this art class I am ACTUALLY interested in, but it's upper division and cannot be taken bla bla bla. News? I cannot seem to make my lazy ass sit down for two seconds and color something. I have about 10-15 sketches in various stages of completion, but none of them are actually being finished. And there is a present that I was making, but I cannot seem to finish that either. Ugg. All I've wanted to do for the past few days was eat orange chicken and Mongolian beef from Panda Express, read a few good BOOKS (you know, real ones), and play Castlevania on my Gameboy Advance. But my mom keeps taking the car, rendering me unable to get to the mall (it would take me an hour to walk there), I have been disappointed by the last book I read (Wicked: bla bla, sex, bla bla, I'm so misunderstood, bla bla), and I cannot seem to locate my Castlevania game. Sigh. Not unhappy, really, just grumpy as hell. The highlight of my day though is the fact that I am watching NCIS season 2 and I love that season. Sigh. I hate season 3 and I have not seen season 4. It's not the same without Kate and with Madame Director. Bla. Gag me with a spoon. Please. I cannot stand that woman. I'm a slash fan, for God's sake, I strongly dislike any on-screen romance, but this one is so...forced. Ok, sorry, I'm just hungry. And my credit card is acting up. Don't ask. Oh, and I guess if anyone cares, my DeviantArt user name is: kienie http://kienie.deviantart.com/ Current Mood: Meh Current Music: Silence (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
10:20 pm	Elfwood Heh. Here is a link to my Elfwood gallery. I shall update as soon as I get off my lazy ass. http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/art/l/e/leodarkside/leodarkside.html (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
2:23 am	Update I am mostly a Xanga girl, so naturaally I do not update very often. I troll, really, but I mean no harm at all. I admire Livejournal for waht it has done. I admire the people too. Life has been good to me thus far, and I can only thank God and my parents for it. I was born lucky. Hear me rumble world. Current Mood: Awake Current Music: None (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
4:52 pm	Me, what else? Years have passed since I first joined. And guess what? I am still a pervy weirdo. At least I'm back together with Kaion. Yeah, we had a huge drama-y fight a few years back, but we made up. I realized a ton of things about myself lately. One of them is that although I am smart and everything, I just don't really care about education and the amount of degrees and credits I may receive. I mean, I suppose I should really care and all, but I honest to God can't master enough...whatever it is you need to care. Maybe my care-meter is broken or something. Hell, whatever the reason, my parents are really not happy about me flunking high school. But guess what? I don't honestly care. I wish I had money of my own now, so I could finally leave. Don't misunderstand, my family situation is great and I have nothing at all to complain about, but I'm sick of completely relying on my parents for everything. They tell me how smart I am but they never listen to a single thing I have to say. Ever. Maybe I just want to lead a life that's independent from what they have in mind for me. See, spoiled brat talking. No reason to be sorry for myself, and yet I'm yakkity yakking away. Tough. I am so tired of this feeling. I am not sorry anymore. Current Mood: Eh Current Music: Silence (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
8:42 pm	Ladies and gentlemen, prom is happening tomorrow. MEEEEEEEEEEP! Current Mood: Huh... Current Music: Why do people always think I listen to music when I update? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
5:55 pm	Daily Show hotness One cannot help but squee, for in tonight’s episode of the Daily Show Stephen took off his shirt. Although by itself, very hot, this did not capture our attention as the segment that followed. Yes, indeed. As the camera cut back to Jon, the show’s host was found giggling worse than a crazed fan-girl, and fanning himself franticly. Coincident? I think not. An evil mind fuck? Possibly. Whatever the truth might be, the RPS-ers squeed, making it big time news around the country, or at least around the livejournal Daily Show RPS community. This historical event will no doubt bring upon us such things as new, even hotter plot bunnies and RPS challenges, or so we hope. At this I shall finish and go back to reading fanfiction. I’m Kienie Darkside, thank you and good night. P.S. If you still don’t know what RPS is…just…go away and stop wasting my valuable FF time. Current Mood: .... Current Music: The voices in my head (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
9:44 pm	Me back God, I was so busy with my Xanga that I forgot I have an account here...well, I'm back. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 11th, 2004
11:31 pm	yay. Ok, so I am here. woohooo!! No, I'm not really excited, coz as I said, i only joined coz I was bored. Actually i do a lot of randome things when I'm bored. Like last week i got bored, so I died my hair orange. My friend helped. Well, I donno, see, I was lookin for some Nero Wolfe fanfiction, and I came upon this website, and it helped. So, later I went back to investigate, and since I had nothing better to do with my self, I joined. So, now people, I'm not asking you to read this, but if you do...well, it's your personal risk, coz sometimes I tend to write (and be) crazy and at times even creepy things. Or, I may never be in the mood, one can never know. So, yeah, since I'm new, here is some junk about me: I'm 15, goin to high school. Life's ok. Am an only child and have no pets. I have four very good friends, but I can basically get along with anybody if I put my mind into it. Otherwise, I scare people off, coz they just don't amuse me. I say "amusing" almost to anything and it can mean anything between "I think you are a piece of crap" to "I love, you marry me!!". So, yeah. That is basically it. I might update again, then again why would you want me to? (is a rethorical quastion) Current Mood: amused Current Music: The humming of the laptop (Comment on this)